Shit happens.

And now im like fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. :(
Why the hell wont it stop?

Why am i wasting away?
When i could have done alot today.
Why do i always call her just for short talks?
Do she even know i did it with an intention.
Why do i always talk about her?
Even if i know its boring my friends.
Why do i still long for this?
Even if its just been a day.

Oh man.
Im starting to miss her.

Shit, i better start studying soon!

Some things that happened recently wont be blogged about.

Aniways. I cancelled the daily morning meetups with nadia today.
Had to be early for class, cause a test was being held for comp programming.

BUT!

My teacher decided to start the test late. Meaning, i could have met nadia earlier in the day.
Oh man. If only i had a crystal ball which lets me to foresee the future! :)

Aniways, guess how well i fair for my test.
I managed to win those who were better than me. Oh wow!
Its a miracle. Nah, actually, the questions given were quite easy.
And no, im not boasting or anything eh. Im just happy. :)

Aniways. im still sleepy and tired from yesterday.
Found out that Su was caught in an accident. So yeah, decided to visit her.
(her house was quite near, as a matter of fact, its only at chinese garden)

She had broken her collar bone and had bruises and scratches all over her arm and leg.
WELL HOPE SHE GETS WELL SOON.

THE SIMPSON'S MOVIE TOMORROW!
With sham, syu, nadia and me. Wohooooo!

SPIDERPIG! SPIDERPIG! DOES WHATEVER SPIDERPIG DOES!

Ive fallen sick. Im coughing. Im sneezing. Ive got an aching shoulder. And my body temp's burning up.
And no, this aint gonna spoil my day. :)

Yesterday after class, went to help Nadia search for her mum's birthday present.
With the help of everyone, we all manage to get the present.

Eventhough if its the same thing. But hey, its the thought that counts.
After much walking yesterday, i know what i shall get for her birthday. :D

It was really really really filled with so much fun.
Nadia told me she was so happy and yeah im happy too!

HOORAY! HOORAY HOORAY!

Happy 55th Birthday to Nadia's mum!

Well, if im not wrong it should be 55th.
If i am then its, either 53rd or 54th. :)

D-DAY's next week! Simpson's movie's next week!
What else? What else? Im already feeling the excited-ness!

Okok. I shall go rest up now.
I dont wanna spread my germs to my siblings.

And eventhough at times she can be stubborn and i can be naggy.
I hope she gets well soon! I dont want to be naggy but yeah. :)

Its been a year since i knew her.
And i still can remember the first time i really met her.

But now...

I know that this might break me
I know that this might make me cry
I know that this will hurt me
I know that this will break my heart and soul inside

So how do i live this life?

I cant leave her. She means like everything to me.
But yeah, i can never have her. So why do i even still bother?

Is it the promise we made?

Idk.

All i know is, i dont want to see her sad.
At times i really cant stand to see them both together, and i start to think it be better if i leave.
But no, cause it'll hurt her much more, then it'll hurt me.

But she's got the boyfriend.

So why the hell, am i still wanting to be with her?
Oh well, i have to pull it together now. AGAIN.

(my friends, if you were hoping for a happier update, then im so sorry)

Lost & broken, hopeless and lonely.
Smiling on the outside, hurt beneath my skin.
My eyes are fading, my soul is bleeding.
I'll try to make it seem ok but my faith is wearing thin.

So help me heal these wounds, they've been open for way too long.
Help me fill this soul, eventhough this is not your fault.
That im open, and im bleeding, all over your brand new rug.
And i need someone to help me sew them up.

I only wanted a magazine. I only wanted a movie screen.
I only wanted the life i read about, and dreamed.
And now my mind is an open book, and now my heart is an open wound.
And now my life is an open soul for all to see.

But help me heal these wounds, they've been open for way too long.
Help me fill this soul, eventhough this is not your fault.
That im open, and im bleeding, all over your brand new rug
And i need someone to help me.

So if you come along, and i push you away.
Know that i'll be kicking and screaming for you stay.
Cause i need someone to help me, oh i need someone to help me.

To help me heal this wounds, they've been open for way too long.
Help me fill this soul, eventhough this is not your fault.
That im open, and im bleeding, all over your brand new rug.

And i need someone to help me sew them.
I need someone to help me fill them.
I need someone to help me close them up.

Sometimes, its hard to fake a smile no matter how hard you try. Oh well.

Yesterday was spent mostly at the national stadium.
It was the closing ceremony.

But earlier i went over to nadia's house. We had guitar session.
And she made for me notella spread! YUMMY YUM YUM!

And we found out that we eat it the same way.
1st the sides, 2nd the remaining portion. haha.

Then we went to meet her friends, Zalina and Kai Ling. Meaning i was the only boy. :S
When we arrived. The weather was so darn bloody hot. You could probably fry an egg on the spot.
Hmm. Ok, maybe im exaggerating. hahaha. but yeah it was bloody hot!

The food and drinks there were expensive too.
This will remind us to bring our own food, but not our own water.
(unfortunately they do not allow bottled drinks to brought into the stadium)

But we are civilised people what!
We wont start throwing bottles at other people. :)

Aniways, the 1st match started off with Singapore against Malaysia.
And it was the legend team. meaning senior players. haha.

Resulting in lots of substitutions being made.

The end result was a draw. Malaysia drew it with a penalty.
Oh well. They all performed great!

Ok, afta watching it, i felt that i wanted to start playing soccer frequently again.
But Nadia said no. But. I want! I want! I want! I want!
Ok maybe no, later i'll prolly break a bone again.

Aniways...

After the 1st match. The 2nd match was up.
That was the main event. Singapore against Australia.
But 20 mins after the match started Nadia had to leave.

I didnt stay to watch...

I decided to follow her.
I didnt want her to get lost on the way.
Besides, she's afraid of walking in dark places.

Aniways. The soccer match wasnt that important. :)

Found out that Singapore lost to Australia.
Oh well. Im sure they all tried their best!

Ok now, lets wait for the new stadium to open!
And nxt time i must remember to bring our own rations! :)

Rest in peace kallang stadium ~!!!

Im bored now!
Monday! Hurry up and come!

When you were here before, couldnt look you in the eye.
You're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry.
You float like a feather, in a beautiful world.
I wish i was special, you're so very special.

But im a creep, im a weirdo.
What the hell am i doing here?
I dont belong here.

I dont care if it hurts, i wanna have control.
I want a perfect body, i want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice when im not around.
You're so very special, i wish i was special.

But im a creep, im a weirdo.
What the hell am i doing here?
I dont belong here.

She's running again.
She's running. She run run run.
Run ~!!! Run ~!!!

Whatever makes you happy.
Whatever you want.
You're so very special
I wish i was special

But im a creep, im a weirdo.
What the hell am i doing here?
I dont belong here. I dont belong here.

Wohoo! I can now play and sing this song at the same time!
4 songs for the private performance! One of them will be a new original!

click to play the song.