im not the same. i guess its because im thinking too much.
i get hurt and paranoid easily. im afraid if this keeps on i'll lose everything.
and definitely, most importantly her.

so i talked with nadia last night. its the same old situation i always get stuck in.
it really spoiled the night. and i was really to be blame for it.

also i was quite dissapointed. she would not join the talentime with me as a duo.
(in the beginning i lied to her, but in the end, i opened up to her)

cause i remembered and so does she..
during the 1st time we met, on that very day we both decide that we would both join the talentime together.
but yeah. i have to understand. and really, i do understand the situation. and its ok i guess. its not her fault.
she's sad that things changed and she's really sorry about it.

also, last night, she even asked me to decide for her whether she stays in or drops out of sham's talentime group.
(for your information, sham's group consist of mo and her too)

cause she's afraid i will get hurt.
i cant say i wont get hurt, neither can i say i will get hurt. its too early.
but i told her, that she shouldnt drop out just because of me.
if mo wanted her to be in, then she should, cause yeah its for the best.

cause i wont hold her back, i will never.
but yeah i will always support her all the way through.

well, quite alot happened last night.
mo even asked a suprising question.
he asked whether i love her.

*sighs*

whats not meant to be, is not meant to be.
i shall understand. and all i can do now is hope for the best.
now, its just a matter of faith.

aniways. had the 1st band practice today with sham's new found band.
and yeah, we all did quite good. bravo! :)

ok i better start studying already! tomorrow i shall!